Love <3

There isn't a day that passes when I don't think about love. I treasure the whole meaning of love, loving someone with all your heart, being there whenever they need you, and being the other part of their life. The bible gives a good definition of love, and I might say, the greatest definition: (Message version)

1 Corinthians 13
"Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't alwasy "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trust God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end."

I once thought I found this love. But I didn't and it has been the hardest to get through. I know I will always hold a special place in my heart for him, and I am happy for where he is right now in his life, but I've always thought, "what if I did this" or "what if I did that", maybe he would still be with me...but I have come to understand that he was put in my life for that specific time, he has helped me become part of the person I am today (a lot stronger, that's for sure) and I thank him for that. I just hope he doesn't forget what we had and play it off as some childhood love, but that he knows that I did really love him, and he will always be my first love.

And if he is reading this (which I highly doubt b/c he doesn't know I have this), but anywho, if you are reading this, and you know who you are........thank you.

Goodnight!

Friends...

Why do we put some much of ourselves in a friendship? When that person lets us down for whatever reason, we get hurt. But then we have the friends that will be there for you whenever you call or whenever you just need to fill silly. I have those two types of friends. I have friends that will put down their stuff to help me, but the I do have the friends that seem like they don't care anymore. I try to be there when they need me, but when I just want to talk to them, I don't hear from them. How do we build trust with someone when they aren't trying to build anything with you??

Oh well...just a few thoughts.